And I said "What about breakfast at Tiffany's"

Monday, October 20, 2008

I'm so tired, TIRED, TIRED!

Of studying, just anything! In fact i'm not even tired of "anything" because i don' really have the time to do "anything" thus conclusion : I'm just tired of this whole consolidation period.

I'm really not doing anything other than studying much apart from going to school (to study) and to church. And that's quite bad not because i don't get to go out but because even so, I feel that I don't achieve much in some days especially days like lately days and i'm so sick of this feeling alr!

Went to school to try out a mock math paper today and it was HORRIBLE.better then prelims yes but still horrible! And it's not like i haven't been putting in effort for math! CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. Plus the fact that the paper is supposedly the june A levels paper which is the typical standard? And i haven't even reached that! Barely a pass or not even? How to get my A like that!!!!

SO FRUSTRATING. I'm gonna bathe and wash all this angst away and then sit down to do some work (most likely math la.) and then go out for a nice dinner (although budget dinner but any form of escape is nice now.) with my cousins. Sorry I have been neglecting you guys but this is really important to me and i still think about all of you all the time =)

The stress has been getting to my head so bad that i've been having weird dreams. Like a few days ago i was buttercup and my sisters, blossom and bubbles were sucked into a ballpit which had a hole at it's base which was actually a portal to mojo jojo's evil world. More weird dreams but i can't rmb them now. Yesterday i dreamt i was forced into prostituition but it was in my kitchen. I mean like me and 2 of my jie meis. HAHA. But there was no action or men or whatever la just me and them in the kitchen and them telling me that it's not so bad and then we had to draw lots to see who gets which man. I was like "huhhh..=( "and remember being very reluctant about it. Haha so funny. Guess i got this dream from the article i read about how thai prostitutes are setting up shop in the forests near foreign workers dorms and are apparently paid 20 dolllars for "one go". It's very scary that they are willing to do so for 20 bucks. I shudder to think about it. Plus because they set up shop in the wild, it's really wild like with mozzies and everything and it's damn gross cuz the conditions are so filthy. They very poor thing leh. So you see the problem lies with MEN. If there wasn't a demand there wouldn't be a supply to begin with. Then i cannot believe that some of these workers can still dare to be interviewed by the newpaper people saying things like "After a day's hard work, we are too tired to travel all the way to Geylang, so it's very convenient for us because the forest is just behind our dorms."

And not just this one. Got many more commenting about it as if it's a norm like as if their buying a soft drink and how they'd rather go the a minimart to buy it instead of like 7-11 or something cuz it's nearer and cheaper. Like macham a commodity. If you think about it, these women seem only to be worth like times 20 of a can of gek huay which is really very sad.

STOP SMUGGLING THESE POOR PROSTITUTES OVER!but then again, many of them entered the trade willingly. But then again, they're prolly really poor to begin with that's why they have to resort to this. So much for fraternity John Lennon.

I was feeling abit bad about the recent spate of reports and documentaries on how these foreign workers are ostracized by Singaporean public which can be seen through how some of their dorms are really far away in the ulu pandan places of Singapore just that we don't know cuz well, it's in the ulu places what! I think that they are humans too and deserve abit better treatment BUT before that I think that they need to prove that they are not what ppl stereotype them to be. I donn't know whether these like sex starved workers make up the majority or are just the few black sheep of the herd but it seems like it's the majority cuz maybe the media gives them too much bad press and little good press? Or maybe it's really the majority because there are really alot of those thai prostitutes and they won't need to many women to service if there weren't so many men who needed servicing right?

Walao eh from one dream can talk until here. Bathe already la bye.

12:37 AM

JUST..

CHARMAINE ISABEL.
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I'm your health, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way.

whoosh-whash-WISH.

Awesome A level results...
Which would land me in a local Uni
Ferragamo flats
New wallet which must not be black yet again
Long flowy dress
Watch (haven't layed eyes on an extremely nice one yet though) WORLD PEACE.ERADICATE POVERTY.

FART FACES.