Of studying, just anything! In fact i'm not even tired of "anything" because i don' really have the time to do "anything" thus conclusion : I'm just tired of this whole consolidation period.
I'm really not doing anything other than studying much apart from going to school (to study) and to church. And that's quite bad not because i don't get to go out but because even so, I feel that I don't achieve much in some days especially days like lately days and i'm so sick of this feeling alr!
Went to school to try out a mock math paper today and it was HORRIBLE.better then prelims yes but still horrible! And it's not like i haven't been putting in effort for math! CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. Plus the fact that the paper is supposedly the june A levels paper which is the typical standard? And i haven't even reached that! Barely a pass or not even? How to get my A like that!!!!
SO FRUSTRATING. I'm gonna bathe and wash all this angst away and then sit down to do some work (most likely math la.) and then go out for a nice dinner (although budget dinner but any form of escape is nice now.) with my cousins. Sorry I have been neglecting you guys but this is really important to me and i still think about all of you all the time =)
The stress has been getting to my head so bad that i've been having weird dreams. Like a few days ago i was buttercup and my sisters, blossom and bubbles were sucked into a ballpit which had a hole at it's base which was actually a portal to mojo jojo's evil world. More weird dreams but i can't rmb them now. Yesterday i dreamt i was forced into prostituition but it was in my kitchen. I mean like me and 2 of my jie meis. HAHA. But there was no action or men or whatever la just me and them in the kitchen and them telling me that it's not so bad and then we had to draw lots to see who gets which man. I was like "huhhh..=( "and remember being very reluctant about it. Haha so funny. Guess i got this dream from the article i read about how thai prostitutes are setting up shop in the forests near foreign workers dorms and are apparently paid 20 dolllars for "one go". It's very scary that they are willing to do so for 20 bucks. I shudder to think about it. Plus because they set up shop in the wild, it's really wild like with mozzies and everything and it's damn gross cuz the conditions are so filthy. They very poor thing leh. So you see the problem lies with MEN. If there wasn't a demand there wouldn't be a supply to begin with. Then i cannot believe that some of these workers can still dare to be interviewed by the newpaper people saying things like "After a day's hard work, we are too tired to travel all the way to Geylang, so it's very convenient for us because the forest is just behind our dorms."
And not just this one. Got many more commenting about it as if it's a norm like as if their buying a soft drink and how they'd rather go the a minimart to buy it instead of like 7-11 or something cuz it's nearer and cheaper. Like macham a commodity. If you think about it, these women seem only to be worth like times 20 of a can of gek huay which is really very sad.
STOP SMUGGLING THESE POOR PROSTITUTES OVER!but then again, many of them entered the trade willingly. But then again, they're prolly really poor to begin with that's why they have to resort to this. So much for fraternity John Lennon.
I was feeling abit bad about the recent spate of reports and documentaries on how these foreign workers are ostracized by Singaporean public which can be seen through how some of their dorms are really far away in the ulu pandan places of Singapore just that we don't know cuz well, it's in the ulu places what! I think that they are humans too and deserve abit better treatment BUT before that I think that they need to prove that they are not what ppl stereotype them to be. I donn't know whether these like sex starved workers make up the majority or are just the few black sheep of the herd but it seems like it's the majority cuz maybe the media gives them too much bad press and little good press? Or maybe it's really the majority because there are really alot of those thai prostitutes and they won't need to many women to service if there weren't so many men who needed servicing right?
Walao eh from one dream can talk until here. Bathe already la bye.
12:37 AM
Anyway we saw this girl like sleeping a few tables away with her back facing us and you know how when sometimes people rest their head on the table, from a certain angle they look as if they are headless?yeah she certainly looked like that which was a little bit amusing. What was more amusing was this :
Me: Omg she looks like that ghost leh. What do you call the ghost with no head who rides on the horse and kills people ah?
Ger:Er. The headless horseman?
HAHAHA. I actually know lor.Just testing her ability to shrink 25 words into 3. Good job Ger you pass!
Let's talk about yesterday which was more fun cuz i finally decided to unwind. Went to town with the main intention of collecting my dress from my niece which i ordered on her BLOG SHOP which does sell pretty pretty (get the pun?) clothes and since all my cousins are enthusiastically endorsing it, I shall too. To the few non-cousins who read my blog, go visit http://mahmia.livejournal if you have the time! Affordable prices too=) sorry Marc. Girls wear only.
So ya as i was saying, the main intention was to collect the dress and I did but i thought heck, why not use this as an opportunity to hang out with my cousins as well since it's been so long since we hung out. (sound like monkeys.) So met up with Reg, Mar and Row and met Dawn in town, ate lunch and walked around Far East for abit. Saw some pretty nice shit but damn i didn't know Far East stuff could be that not cheap. Always thought they sold pretty cheap stuff but some of the nicer clothes are well above 40 kind. Some cheap stuff didn't fit me very well so i was left with purchasing zilch. =( Wanted badly to buy a black waist belt cause the only one I have is a very conspicuous red one which according to Fonz is also very "thick" ("why your belt so thick ah?" I mean what kinda question is that?!) and i hafta always try to match around it so i'm SICK AND TIRED OF THIS RED NONSENSE. NO MORE. BLACK MEANS BLACK.
Bought a headband though for 5.90. Owning one never crossed my mind until Reg was looking at it then i was thinking hmm..i wonder how it'll look like on me. Then somemore cannot try cause it said "no trying" i'm guessing cuz it's elastic and will expand the the saleslady was very "niau" and watching us with her eagle eyes in case we try to pull the wool over her eyes (we were trying to pull the band over our heads. haha i think my pun is funny!). Yeah so i bought it and turns out, according to cousin, i look pretty okay! Ke Ming didn't really give me a straight answer but WELL. TADAH!
Ger say i look like act princess. I'll take that.
Okay ya so that was the only thing i brought home with me ytd because I LEFT MY DRESS IN REG'S BAG. Which is rather frustrating since that was the point of the whole meet up anyway. I bet if the band wasn't plastered on my head, I would have forgotten it too.
Pictures at fish and co, credits to Row. Putting it up because
1. All of you are doing it
2. Which leaves me no choice
3. Must give credit to Row's work
4. No la. It's just number 4, because i LOVE YOU GUYS. ERM, GIRLS. =)
Gee i love you too okay and i'm really sorry you couldn't join us but you are always in my heart=)
I'm so sweet leh. eeyer. Just changed from red font back to black font but this black looks abit lighter than the previous black. walao eh black also got different shades.
PS: I got new Yo mama jokes to share! I was on a creating yo mama jokes spree ytd whilst on the phone with matt then i had to keep interupting our conversation and saving it in my "notes" in my phone so that i wouldn't forget!HAHA! For cousins only. Classmates will not find it amusing. I tired. goonigh.
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